Not the Planned Entry

i've started writing more on my "Taylor" blog now. i was invited to join a Health Blogger site because they feel that my writing about my journey with Taylor's medical stuff will help other parents.

i must say i felt very honored. i just wish i had known about computers and blogging when my journey started 20 years ago. It would have been wonderful to look back at all the emotions that i went through to get Taylor to where she is…myself as well.

i also happen to wish i had Taylor's baby pictures. i don't thanks to my previous relationship. He actually held all of my personal photos hostage for money and when i couldn't come up with the money he wanted, he threw them away. i thought i had let that anger go, but not being able to scan and Taylor's baby pictures, hospital pictures, all the pictures that document what we went through has royally pissed me off.

Unfortunately, because i left him the day i got home from a 10 hospital stay he caused, i didn't move my own stuff. B and my 2 sons-in-law went over to the apartment and packed mine and Taylor's stuff. They didn't know he kept that box of personal stuff. It even had the papers I had written in college in it.

Okay, i guess i better stop writing now or i won't be able to sleep tonight because i'll lay in bed thinking of how mad i am. He is an ass and not worth another second of my time. Thank god i'm in a much better place now with an awesome Master/Man.