Have you ever had one of those days when you just seem to lose your mind? i had one of them today. Of course, as a slave, it’s not a good idea to have one of “those” days with your Master.
i’m sure that i could give several different reasons why i was acting the way i was. To anyone reading my page, they would seem like acceptable reasons for being frustrated, annoyed, angry, upset, and every other conceivable negative emotion.
However, i’m not going to start listing the reasons…because they don’t really matter. The way i acted was not acceptable at all…not for a slave and not for a mom. Yes, because of the way i was feeling, i acted out. What i should have done, was calm down and talk about my feelings.
i didn’t do that. Instead, i was not respectful towards my Master and i yelled at Taylor. Moms the world over have lost patience with their kids. Slaves have also succumbed to their emotions and been short/disrespectful with their Masters. Just because those emotions happen, doesn’t mean that we should act on them.
It is real easy for me to sit back and analyze the way i acted after i’ve already done it. i should have taken a step back, while i was in the moment, and just taken a minute to compose myself. There is no excuse for the way i acted and i’m not going to try and say there was. i know now that if i should start feeling that frustrated again, i need to take a deep breath and calm down before i talk to anyone.
i know i apologized Master for my behavior, but i want to apologize again, here, for the way i acted. Thank you for your patience and your forgiveness. i love you with all my heart.
i’m sure that i could give several different reasons why i was acting the way i was. To anyone reading my page, they would seem like acceptable reasons for being frustrated, annoyed, angry, upset, and every other conceivable negative emotion.
However, i’m not going to start listing the reasons…because they don’t really matter. The way i acted was not acceptable at all…not for a slave and not for a mom. Yes, because of the way i was feeling, i acted out. What i should have done, was calm down and talk about my feelings.
i didn’t do that. Instead, i was not respectful towards my Master and i yelled at Taylor. Moms the world over have lost patience with their kids. Slaves have also succumbed to their emotions and been short/disrespectful with their Masters. Just because those emotions happen, doesn’t mean that we should act on them.
It is real easy for me to sit back and analyze the way i acted after i’ve already done it. i should have taken a step back, while i was in the moment, and just taken a minute to compose myself. There is no excuse for the way i acted and i’m not going to try and say there was. i know now that if i should start feeling that frustrated again, i need to take a deep breath and calm down before i talk to anyone.
i know i apologized Master for my behavior, but i want to apologize again, here, for the way i acted. Thank you for your patience and your forgiveness. i love you with all my heart.
2 comments:
What you did, while wrong, is now history and cannot be changed. So there is a new lesson that can be added to your life book of change.
We are "human" slaves though while not perfect and many times inappropriate towards our Masters and others, we posess a willingness to change; that's a positive thing.
Now, put down the the flogger, it's for your Master's use and not yours; go sit at your Master's feet or where-ever else He would like you to be.
my oh my i can be bossy...ooopsssey, sorry it's the hidden domme' in me, the small d is because i really wouldn't be any good at it **smiles**
BIG HUGS,
kathleen {SG}
Proud to be called doulos to
Jesus Christ and Sir Geoffrey
Hey kathleen, you can be bossy when you are right! :)
slave, we had a very rough day, and I am surely not making excuses either. It was very stressful, and there is no way to get around it, and that is how it came out in you.
I knew you would be harder on yourself that I could ever be. I was disappointed in how you acted, but your apology was sincere, and we move on.
It could be a rough next few days, months, or whatever time it takes for me to find a job, or be sucessful at a repair business.
All we can do is work together and move forward.
Thank you for listening and being there today, (with the exception of your little event) and I know we will be ok.
I think you know after 2 years, that you never have to ask me if I still love you. My love is not contingent on whether or not you are a bad girl. your Master's love is unconditional, just like your Daddy should be.
Master
Master
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