It’s weekend time! It is really nice to have Master in the house, even if he spends time in his office. It gets lonely here spending 5 days a week with only Taylor.
It’s not that i don’t love my child, but it would be kind of nice if she could actually carry on a conversation. Instead, she would rather spend her time playing with the canned goods in the kitchen. Please don’t ask me what her fascination is with taking the canned goods and moving them from one cabinet to the other. i have no clue what goes on in the child’s head.
You know, i’m not sure i could handle her thought processes. They are definitely one of a kind thoughts. Sure, it would be nice to know what she is thinking sometimes, because there are times when i feel like she is trying to communicate with me but i’m just not getting it.
i’ve gone through so many things with Taylor that i don’t know what could possibly be left to deal with. Okay, so i’m sure there is something she hasn’t had to deal with, but i don’t know what it is. i certainly wish that those that have children, no matter the age, that have some medical or developmental problems would at least give me the opportunity to help. The person i’m talking about knows exactly who they are.
i would like to think that i haven’t endured 18 years of Taylor for nothing. i don’t mean nothing in a bad way. i know that with Taylor, i have someone who loves me unconditionally and that is awesome. i firmly believe that my experiences can be of help to others…even if it’s just a medical issue. i know what it is like to sit and wait while your child is in surgery. Taylor has had 10 + surgeries. i’m pretty sure that gives me some experience.
Anyway, i’m here for that person or persons that need me. Please take advantage of the trials i’ve been through. It will at least make me feel useful.
It’s not that i don’t love my child, but it would be kind of nice if she could actually carry on a conversation. Instead, she would rather spend her time playing with the canned goods in the kitchen. Please don’t ask me what her fascination is with taking the canned goods and moving them from one cabinet to the other. i have no clue what goes on in the child’s head.
You know, i’m not sure i could handle her thought processes. They are definitely one of a kind thoughts. Sure, it would be nice to know what she is thinking sometimes, because there are times when i feel like she is trying to communicate with me but i’m just not getting it.
i’ve gone through so many things with Taylor that i don’t know what could possibly be left to deal with. Okay, so i’m sure there is something she hasn’t had to deal with, but i don’t know what it is. i certainly wish that those that have children, no matter the age, that have some medical or developmental problems would at least give me the opportunity to help. The person i’m talking about knows exactly who they are.
i would like to think that i haven’t endured 18 years of Taylor for nothing. i don’t mean nothing in a bad way. i know that with Taylor, i have someone who loves me unconditionally and that is awesome. i firmly believe that my experiences can be of help to others…even if it’s just a medical issue. i know what it is like to sit and wait while your child is in surgery. Taylor has had 10 + surgeries. i’m pretty sure that gives me some experience.
Anyway, i’m here for that person or persons that need me. Please take advantage of the trials i’ve been through. It will at least make me feel useful.
3 comments:
sister dear, though i may not know to whom you are making a reference too, you are never useless. You are a great resource and a great friend. Thank you...and you are a great asset to anyone you call "friend."
I get it and I am thankful for you and all you have tried to do for me.It means more then I can put into words.You touched my heart.
i don't believe that God allows U/us to go through the pain and experiences W/we go through for no reason. W/we can always take the experience and skills W/we have gained and passed them on. Including how W/we heal from the painful experiences. God did not create P/people to be alone. i think He does mean for U/us to share as part of preservation.
you, sister, have oddles and oddles of personal experience to share with other and i believe that it would be to the benefit of A/another person as well as youself to be able to share this experienc. In AA they call it sharing your, "experience, strength and hope" i believe you have more than enough of all three.
What is that saying? When the student is ready the teacher will appear?
hugs,
kathleen {SG}
Proud to be called doulos to
Jesus Christ and Sir Geoffrey
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