Preparing for a Loss

It's been a pretty emotionally draining day. Master got a call from his brother this morning saying that the care home called and told his Dad that his mom probably only has a few days left to live.

We knew she wasn't doing well, but i don't think anyone was expecting that phone call. B was sweet and offered to come here and run the office and take care of Taylor so that i could with Master to the nursing home. Of course, today the school decided to call and Taylor starting running a temperature…it got up to 101.2.

Brandy went and picked her up from school and then took her to the Urgent Care while Master was finishing up some things before we left. She has pneumonia which comes from the being in heart failure. She was fine yesterday and today she isn't.

i went with Master to visit his mom tonight so that i could be there for him and be of support and i was the one who was trying to cry quietly. Master's mom has always been good to me and i care a great deal about her so it was so hard to see her in pain. We know that she's not happy right now and it is her time, but it's still going to be hard when she goes. That's one of those things where you know it's right and you try to prepare, but that doesn't alleviate the pain of her loss.

i love you Master and i'm here for you…always.