i realized that other day that i had somehow gotten away from asking Master things. It started out that i didn't want to bother him while he was having his "down" time. When he was out in the garage, working on his train stuff, i kept telling myself he really doesn't want to be bothered. He most likely didn't.
However, there are two things about that. One is that is the parameters of our relationship. He is Master and i am the slave but the most important thing is that i took the decision out of his hands. It might not be because of any nefarious thinking on my part but the results were the same. i made the choice instead of leaving it up to him. In my desire to let him has his quiet time, i changed our relationship.
i've since realized that and i've made the concerted effort to make sure i always ask when i want to do anything or if i want/need to change plans. If he doesn't want to be bothered, he will tell me. It's part of the relationship…he's the Master and there are times when he will have to be interrupted (annoyed) by his slave.
i want to say that i'm sorry Master. Thank you for being so patient with me. i'm glad that i could come to this on my own without you having to say anything. i love you.
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The same thing has been going on here; i am struggling with remembering to ask first and total submission without restraint on my part.
As with any relationship we have to keep working on them to have them remain healthy. Even M/s; D/s
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