Today has been such a better day. Not to belabor the point, but being able to talk through things makes life a whole hell of a lot easier. i’m not any closer to fixing my problem, but having it out in the open is definitely a step in the right direction.
i feel like my whole attitude is different. i don’t feel so desperately unhappy like i was feeling. i really had some serious doubts as to whether or not i was cut out to be a slave. i knew i had lost the mindset of being a slave and i didn’t know if i had the emotional strength to get it back again.
i’m pretty sure i said as much to kathleen. Thank goodness for friends who just listen and offer encouragement. That was what i needed at that time so that i had a clear picture in my mind of what i needed to do regardless of how hard it was going to be.
i don’t know if i’ll have resolve my issue completely, but for the first time, i actually feel like there is hope.
i feel like my whole attitude is different. i don’t feel so desperately unhappy like i was feeling. i really had some serious doubts as to whether or not i was cut out to be a slave. i knew i had lost the mindset of being a slave and i didn’t know if i had the emotional strength to get it back again.
i’m pretty sure i said as much to kathleen. Thank goodness for friends who just listen and offer encouragement. That was what i needed at that time so that i had a clear picture in my mind of what i needed to do regardless of how hard it was going to be.
i don’t know if i’ll have resolve my issue completely, but for the first time, i actually feel like there is hope.
2 comments:
you are doing a great job working through things, and it was such a pleasure to see you in better spirits today.
Master
i'm so glad to hear that you are feeling better.
i too have gone through a period of loosing my slave mindset and woundering if i could ever get it back. For me i have it back but in a different way that is hard for me to explain. Maybe we all as slaves go through this at one time or another, i don't know.
Whatever your mindset is now and needs to be, at least your in a place where you can work on it now.
Don't cringe when i say this but seeing that you are once again experiencing joy reminds me of a saying that i hold onto, "the joy of the Lord is my strength."
luv ya sis; keep on growing. your growth has been in phenominal amounts since i first came to know you so don't quit now.
hugs,
kathleen {SG}
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