Master has a very stressful job. Anytime you are a supervisor and have to deal with people and their “issues”, it’s going to stress you out. When Master has an especially stressful week, he needs some down (alone) time. He needs time to just go in his office and do whatever relaxes him.
On the other hand, you have a slave who spends all day cooped up with a “child”. There are no people to talk to, unless you include doctors and nurses. So when Master comes home, she is happy to have another adult to talk to.
Herein lies the problem. Two people who need/want from the other the one thing they don’t want to give them, at that moment. In a vanilla relationship, this would probably end up with lots of angry words and arguments. This doesn’t happen in a Master/slave relationship. Maybe i should clarify that it doesn’t happen in “real” M/s relationships. So many out there call themselves Master and slave yet have no clue what those terms really involve. But that is another entry. *smiles*
So, when Master comes home and needs his space, i try really hard to give it to him. i try very hard not to bother him or talk to him when he’s in his office. Is it easy? Hell no. i get lonely. i want to be with Master because i’ve been home all week with just Taylor. i enjoy talking with Master, we have lots of really cool conversations. But i know that he needs this and as his slave, it is my job to make his life easy and not add to his stress.
i’m not the perfect slave. There are times when i let my feelings get the better of me, but i would hope that those times are few and far between. There are plenty of things i can do by myself. i have my books, a computer, the TV. However, none of those things take the place of being with Master.
When i first got here, there was a lot i had to learn. Master worked all day and then taught 2 nights a week, he still does. i had been used to lots of people around me. Now i was spending a lot of time alone. It was a huge adjustment. But i did it and now the loneliness only invades occasionally.
This weekend has been a bit rough for me. Master really needed some alone time and i really needed some “not alone” time. i think i’ve done a good job of giving him what he needs because he did give me a big kiss and tell me “thank you” for letting him have his time. That definitely helped the lonely feelings dissipate.
my relationship with my Master has gone way beyond just being Master and slave. There is a connection between the two of us that i can’t explain. Our first meeting was so perfect. i don’t know that i believe in love at first sight, but i knew that i loved him after just a few days. Okay, so that too is another entry. *laughs* i guess i’ll go ahead and end this one.
The moral of this story is that even if Master needs time by himself, it doesn’t mean he is tired of you or doesn’t want you anymore. That is something i would have thought last year, but i’d like to think i’ve grown since then and i’m confident(99.9% of the time) in my Master’s love for me.
i love you Master…more than i could ever put into words. (psychotic amounts)
On the other hand, you have a slave who spends all day cooped up with a “child”. There are no people to talk to, unless you include doctors and nurses. So when Master comes home, she is happy to have another adult to talk to.
Herein lies the problem. Two people who need/want from the other the one thing they don’t want to give them, at that moment. In a vanilla relationship, this would probably end up with lots of angry words and arguments. This doesn’t happen in a Master/slave relationship. Maybe i should clarify that it doesn’t happen in “real” M/s relationships. So many out there call themselves Master and slave yet have no clue what those terms really involve. But that is another entry. *smiles*
So, when Master comes home and needs his space, i try really hard to give it to him. i try very hard not to bother him or talk to him when he’s in his office. Is it easy? Hell no. i get lonely. i want to be with Master because i’ve been home all week with just Taylor. i enjoy talking with Master, we have lots of really cool conversations. But i know that he needs this and as his slave, it is my job to make his life easy and not add to his stress.
i’m not the perfect slave. There are times when i let my feelings get the better of me, but i would hope that those times are few and far between. There are plenty of things i can do by myself. i have my books, a computer, the TV. However, none of those things take the place of being with Master.
When i first got here, there was a lot i had to learn. Master worked all day and then taught 2 nights a week, he still does. i had been used to lots of people around me. Now i was spending a lot of time alone. It was a huge adjustment. But i did it and now the loneliness only invades occasionally.
This weekend has been a bit rough for me. Master really needed some alone time and i really needed some “not alone” time. i think i’ve done a good job of giving him what he needs because he did give me a big kiss and tell me “thank you” for letting him have his time. That definitely helped the lonely feelings dissipate.
my relationship with my Master has gone way beyond just being Master and slave. There is a connection between the two of us that i can’t explain. Our first meeting was so perfect. i don’t know that i believe in love at first sight, but i knew that i loved him after just a few days. Okay, so that too is another entry. *laughs* i guess i’ll go ahead and end this one.
The moral of this story is that even if Master needs time by himself, it doesn’t mean he is tired of you or doesn’t want you anymore. That is something i would have thought last year, but i’d like to think i’ve grown since then and i’m confident(99.9% of the time) in my Master’s love for me.
i love you Master…more than i could ever put into words. (psychotic amounts)
3 comments:
you my slave are a true blessing in my life. I am so proud to call you My slave.
you have become such a beautiful woman, such an obediant, loving, and deovted slave.
I know the stressful times will only make the good times that much better.
I am glad you are in my home, and in my life, taking care of things for me. you are very special to me, and I don't mean "special" as in Taylor special! :)
I love you,
Master
I so love reading the words you write to each other and about each other.It show that special kind of love we all want one day.Thanks for allowing me to share your joy from afar.Big hugs(in the words of traci-smile)
i understand some of the lonliness as from time to time i go through it myself.
About 2 or more years ago, Sir Geoffrey and i talked about His needing down time when He comes through the door. So the ruling became that when He get's home, i great Him at the door and welcome Him home. He then kisses me and heads to the bedroom to lay down, watch TV or whatever. It was really hard in the beginning because i missed Him so badly and ya there was that teeny weeny sense of insecurity on my part. Now i know this is one of Sir's requirements and it is no longer mentally a problem on my part.
Usually i ask permission to play on the computer and depending on the timing i make His dinner as another requirement is that it be on the table no later than 6pm. From time to time i screw up but working on the 6pm part but i am completely faithful to His being alone for a while now.
you my sister are an awesome slave; yes, you're also a female human being. Sir has taught me that we're also wired differently then men in what our needs are.
It's awesome that you came to live with a Master such as yours. That is so understanding and has put focus on seeing that you're healthy mentally and physically. From reading what the T/two of Y/you write there is no doubt in my mind that He loves you as much as you love Him.
Oh, and btw, i understand the kind of realationship that you have, i can't put words to it either, but since i live in the same lifestyle existance as you..i know, that i know.
i do wonder sometimes though what it must be like to have a Master that is a police officer at heart. That part must be really interesting..in a positive way.
Sorry, this comment turned into a blog entry of my own sort of **frowns**
BIG HUGS
kathleen {SG}
Proud to be called doulos to
Jesus Christ and Sir Geoffrey
hugs
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