i’m angry! i would have thought that in the two years i spent living with the asshole Nate, that i there should be a time when i was madder at him at that time then i am now. But no…right now i have never hated anyone as much as i hate that “man”.
i just want to scream. It’s not fair that i am dealing with lingering health issues that are affecting my current relationship with the Master of my dreams. i don’t know what else to say to get all of this anger and hatred out of my system. i just know that it really, really sucks!
i think that if i stood face to face with him, i could actually commit physical harm to his person. i would not trust myself with any type of weapon.
i know that my saying it isn’t fair isn’t going to change anything, but it isnt’ fair. i shouldn’t be struggling for every single breath i take. i shouldn’t have to be running to the Emergency Room every few days so they can think i’m some sort of hypochondriac.
Breathing shouldn’t be a chore and for me, right now, it is. Nothing i am doing seems to last. Yesterday, after getting IV steroids, i felt so much better, only to wake up at 4:30am with a wet sounding cough and more wheezing.
ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
That is how i feel right now and i’m not very happy about it. my Master shouldn’t have to deal with this. He shouldn’t have to worry about whether or not his slave can breath.
Have i said i’m pissed yet?????????????
i just want to scream. It’s not fair that i am dealing with lingering health issues that are affecting my current relationship with the Master of my dreams. i don’t know what else to say to get all of this anger and hatred out of my system. i just know that it really, really sucks!
i think that if i stood face to face with him, i could actually commit physical harm to his person. i would not trust myself with any type of weapon.
i know that my saying it isn’t fair isn’t going to change anything, but it isnt’ fair. i shouldn’t be struggling for every single breath i take. i shouldn’t have to be running to the Emergency Room every few days so they can think i’m some sort of hypochondriac.
Breathing shouldn’t be a chore and for me, right now, it is. Nothing i am doing seems to last. Yesterday, after getting IV steroids, i felt so much better, only to wake up at 4:30am with a wet sounding cough and more wheezing.
ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
That is how i feel right now and i’m not very happy about it. my Master shouldn’t have to deal with this. He shouldn’t have to worry about whether or not his slave can breath.
Have i said i’m pissed yet?????????????
2 comments:
you have every right to be really angry at nate; he gave you so many reasons.
Has your doctors prescribed "Spiriva 18 MCG" yet? When my asthma was really acting up it dried up my lungs so the wet coughing stopped. Where your asthma is so out of control right now has your doctor referred you to a pulmonary specialist yet? Also I used to take "Singular 10 MG", this medication can be used for rhinitis or asthma so it kind of helps with allergies that kick off asthma.
hang in there,
hugs,
kathy {SG}
Proud to be called doulos to
Jesus Christ and Sir Geoffrey
I understand it, and it is very normal for what has happened to you. If you were not angry, you would be holding it in, stuffing it, and that would not be healthy.
I have taught you to express your anger, and write about it.
good girl. It will only make you feel a little better, just being able to say it, without fear of someone making fun of you, or correcting you.
I hate what happened to. It sucks.
I love you,
Master
Post a Comment